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Oct. 6th, 2004 10:41 pmThis is beginning to drive me nuts! Everything that's been going on on an astral level and just won't go away is really starting to get to me - and yes I know that's probably the plan but it's getting harder and harder to bite my tongue when every little thing irritates me.
I want to put up some protections but I can't focus, I want to get my cards out and see if I can find out what's going on but I can't settle, I should contact Jackie and let her know what's happening but she's offline still and I forget to phone her until it's too late, I want to talk to Rion again and get an update but I daren't ask 'cos I'm jsut as likely to get my head bitten off.
Being in on all this stuff is really starting to make my head hurt, especially when we're all spread out like this - everything that happened at the flat may hae been made worse by that number of sensitives in the same house but at least they had that many more people to help with the clean up!
Added to all that that I still need to go see Sammy, I should phone her but for some reason my stupid anti phone thing has kicked off again and I would far rather go round there, I'm getting reminded daily that I haven't spoken to her - does he think I don't realise this? Or that it means I'm not worried? I am worried, I'm fucking scared stiff that at some point she's actually going to manage it! I love her dearly and really don't want to lose her...although the other part of the reason I'm dreading actually seeing her is because there's this tiny part of me that feels like maybe the way Steve always seems to be with me is part of the problem - Ok this is probably just me being paranoid and it's the kind of thing I was calling Muppett arrogant for the other day but I can't help worrying.
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*Giggles*
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Ok, that's just made me feel a little better, we just had to put icky anti-flea stuff on the cats and they were both sitting, one on top of the monitor and one behind the computer, staring accusingly at me, then Rina went and hid under a box flap - only because the box is only about half the size of her it ended up being this little face peeking out from under it looking worried and her entire backhalf outside of the box - they can be SO cute and usually just at the right times. Although she has ripped my arm up quite nicely from me tryiong to pick her up with no sleaves, how is it that cats always know exactly what you're planning on doing to them?!
Anyway, back to the problems in hand, I'm considering taking my cards and myself to the park tomorrow if the weather is decent, I may be able to get more done when I'm not in the house 'cos this place can be damn depressing at times. I'm also going to kick up some decent protections and preprep some defense if this isn't sorted by the time I go home, I have visions of it all getting SO much worse over Samhain if it's left unchecked all those kids playing with ouija boards because they're advertised as "games" now - Ok so are Tarot decks mostly but they're just slightly less dangerous, especisally if that's how this thing got here in the first place....We'll manage, we always do and we'll manage all the cleanup afterwards, at least they're not trying to keep us out of this one.
*pixie dust*
(In slightly less sparkly quantities than usual)
I want to put up some protections but I can't focus, I want to get my cards out and see if I can find out what's going on but I can't settle, I should contact Jackie and let her know what's happening but she's offline still and I forget to phone her until it's too late, I want to talk to Rion again and get an update but I daren't ask 'cos I'm jsut as likely to get my head bitten off.
Being in on all this stuff is really starting to make my head hurt, especially when we're all spread out like this - everything that happened at the flat may hae been made worse by that number of sensitives in the same house but at least they had that many more people to help with the clean up!
Added to all that that I still need to go see Sammy, I should phone her but for some reason my stupid anti phone thing has kicked off again and I would far rather go round there, I'm getting reminded daily that I haven't spoken to her - does he think I don't realise this? Or that it means I'm not worried? I am worried, I'm fucking scared stiff that at some point she's actually going to manage it! I love her dearly and really don't want to lose her...although the other part of the reason I'm dreading actually seeing her is because there's this tiny part of me that feels like maybe the way Steve always seems to be with me is part of the problem - Ok this is probably just me being paranoid and it's the kind of thing I was calling Muppett arrogant for the other day but I can't help worrying.
....
*Giggles*
....
Ok, that's just made me feel a little better, we just had to put icky anti-flea stuff on the cats and they were both sitting, one on top of the monitor and one behind the computer, staring accusingly at me, then Rina went and hid under a box flap - only because the box is only about half the size of her it ended up being this little face peeking out from under it looking worried and her entire backhalf outside of the box - they can be SO cute and usually just at the right times. Although she has ripped my arm up quite nicely from me tryiong to pick her up with no sleaves, how is it that cats always know exactly what you're planning on doing to them?!
Anyway, back to the problems in hand, I'm considering taking my cards and myself to the park tomorrow if the weather is decent, I may be able to get more done when I'm not in the house 'cos this place can be damn depressing at times. I'm also going to kick up some decent protections and preprep some defense if this isn't sorted by the time I go home, I have visions of it all getting SO much worse over Samhain if it's left unchecked all those kids playing with ouija boards because they're advertised as "games" now - Ok so are Tarot decks mostly but they're just slightly less dangerous, especisally if that's how this thing got here in the first place....We'll manage, we always do and we'll manage all the cleanup afterwards, at least they're not trying to keep us out of this one.
*pixie dust*
(In slightly less sparkly quantities than usual)
