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Nov. 29th, 2005 02:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
triple_flameThe insane levels of endorphins have dropped somewhat over night and several phone calls have been made where I even managed to avoid screaming at people. I can look back on the last month with a little more objectivity now and honestly say that I'm glad I did it.
With all the ups and downs it has been a crazy few weeks but I'm there. I have a piece of work, I'm not calling it a novel until it's finished, of over 50,000 words and it's still going strong. I have the potential for another 30-50,000 words in this story and another novel to follow to tell the second half of the tale. I have all these big plans for publishing and the like but even if they never amount to anything I have the satisfaction of knowing that I have done something worthwhile in my life; something that so many people say they want to do and never manage. I've proven beyond the shadow of a doubt that I can silence my inner editor, or at least keep her on a short leash and that some of the things I write without her that I might have been tempted to edit into oblivion before are actually GOOD.
I was almost expecting a severe bout of after show (or after novel) depression to kick in today, it hasn't. I don't know if it's the fact that I'm still finding new people to tell or whether it's because I know I'm not finished yet but I still feel motivated. There is an immense feeling of satisfaction and accomplishment that nothing is going to take away from me, if I feel uninspired or depressed I can now go and look at the winners list or gaze at my certificate and know that I have done something amazing. That I have set myself a task and a deadline and I succeded despite the vagaries of real life. For the first time in far too long I feel justifiably proud of myself and I've learned that NaNoWriMo does more for me than all the prozac in the world!
I want to apologise to all the people who I've neglected this month and thank the ones who have had to deal with my occasional frantic phone calls when the dreaded writers' block has hit. A part of me still doesn't quite register that it's over, that I've won, I think that's because there is so much of the story left to tell. Perhaps when I've got that certificate printed and framed it will seem more real...
I'm going now or I'll just babble on all day, I might have won NaNoWriMo but I still have a novel to finish by the end of January.
*pixie dust*
With all the ups and downs it has been a crazy few weeks but I'm there. I have a piece of work, I'm not calling it a novel until it's finished, of over 50,000 words and it's still going strong. I have the potential for another 30-50,000 words in this story and another novel to follow to tell the second half of the tale. I have all these big plans for publishing and the like but even if they never amount to anything I have the satisfaction of knowing that I have done something worthwhile in my life; something that so many people say they want to do and never manage. I've proven beyond the shadow of a doubt that I can silence my inner editor, or at least keep her on a short leash and that some of the things I write without her that I might have been tempted to edit into oblivion before are actually GOOD.
I was almost expecting a severe bout of after show (or after novel) depression to kick in today, it hasn't. I don't know if it's the fact that I'm still finding new people to tell or whether it's because I know I'm not finished yet but I still feel motivated. There is an immense feeling of satisfaction and accomplishment that nothing is going to take away from me, if I feel uninspired or depressed I can now go and look at the winners list or gaze at my certificate and know that I have done something amazing. That I have set myself a task and a deadline and I succeded despite the vagaries of real life. For the first time in far too long I feel justifiably proud of myself and I've learned that NaNoWriMo does more for me than all the prozac in the world!
I want to apologise to all the people who I've neglected this month and thank the ones who have had to deal with my occasional frantic phone calls when the dreaded writers' block has hit. A part of me still doesn't quite register that it's over, that I've won, I think that's because there is so much of the story left to tell. Perhaps when I've got that certificate printed and framed it will seem more real...
I'm going now or I'll just babble on all day, I might have won NaNoWriMo but I still have a novel to finish by the end of January.
*pixie dust*
