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Aug. 25th, 2005 02:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
triple_flameI'm feeling better now than I have done in a while I think...maybe there is something to this talking thing that people keep trying to get me to do...Ok so there wasn't so much of the talking, more watching Tru Calling and drinking tea but it was still good.
For the first time in over a year I finally feel like I'm getting a handle on my emotions and I'm bouncing, this is good...kinda strange but definitely good. Is it really crazy for the lack of something so simple as random conversation and the occasional hug to mess you up that much? I guess it isn't really, after all, that's what most relationships in our lives are based around be they friends, family or something more. Heh, listen to me, getting all philosophical.
I'm looking forward to next week as well, hopefully the break away from it all will give me a little more chance to get my head together and figure out exactly how I feel. Given the presence of my laptop I may also get some use out of all the inspiration I keep babbling about everytime I go home!
I popped into Again on my way back from the station earlier, couldn't resist looking at prettiness. As it happened it was a good thing, I now have pretty new corset top which is silvery and shiny and prettiful. It's also crazy - hook and eye fastenings at the side...I'll definitely need help getting the damn thing done up. Then again, it's also a 14 so there's room for adaptation at some point, possibly ripping the hooks and eyes out, cutting up the back and eyeleting it so I can lace it up.
See, bouncy! Also girly, I'm still trying to figure out my new found love of makeup. Perhaps I'm just catching up because I never went through that stage at school, I can't think of any other reason, usually I do makeup because I want to hide or because there's some occasion, not just because I feel like it. That's always been part of me, I can never be bothered spending hours in front of a mirror! Then again I don't spend hours in front of it, I spend about 10 minutes (if that) in front of it...who said that phases had to stop with your teens?
I'm debating confusing my parents and being gothy when I go home, I usually end up being more "normal" just because I feel like I'm slipping back into being their little girl...maybe I'm growing up again, maybe I'm only just getting comfortable with who I am. Maybe I'm getting back to being comfortable with myself. I don't know. I'm kinda confused but in a good way.
*pixie dust*
For the first time in over a year I finally feel like I'm getting a handle on my emotions and I'm bouncing, this is good...kinda strange but definitely good. Is it really crazy for the lack of something so simple as random conversation and the occasional hug to mess you up that much? I guess it isn't really, after all, that's what most relationships in our lives are based around be they friends, family or something more. Heh, listen to me, getting all philosophical.
I'm looking forward to next week as well, hopefully the break away from it all will give me a little more chance to get my head together and figure out exactly how I feel. Given the presence of my laptop I may also get some use out of all the inspiration I keep babbling about everytime I go home!
I popped into Again on my way back from the station earlier, couldn't resist looking at prettiness. As it happened it was a good thing, I now have pretty new corset top which is silvery and shiny and prettiful. It's also crazy - hook and eye fastenings at the side...I'll definitely need help getting the damn thing done up. Then again, it's also a 14 so there's room for adaptation at some point, possibly ripping the hooks and eyes out, cutting up the back and eyeleting it so I can lace it up.
See, bouncy! Also girly, I'm still trying to figure out my new found love of makeup. Perhaps I'm just catching up because I never went through that stage at school, I can't think of any other reason, usually I do makeup because I want to hide or because there's some occasion, not just because I feel like it. That's always been part of me, I can never be bothered spending hours in front of a mirror! Then again I don't spend hours in front of it, I spend about 10 minutes (if that) in front of it...who said that phases had to stop with your teens?
I'm debating confusing my parents and being gothy when I go home, I usually end up being more "normal" just because I feel like I'm slipping back into being their little girl...maybe I'm growing up again, maybe I'm only just getting comfortable with who I am. Maybe I'm getting back to being comfortable with myself. I don't know. I'm kinda confused but in a good way.
*pixie dust*
